Holding Pattern

The last couple weeks of my pregnancy with Austin was spent sleeping in, working at an air conditioned desk job for 4-6 hours per day, and then sitting on the couch. Chris would come home, we'd eat something light, and go for a slow walk with the dogs. I remember then feeling pretty uncomfortable. For example, here is a blurb from my journal when I was 38 weeks along last time: "I look in the mirror and see a fat cow. I walk around and feel like a fat cow. And if you look it and feel it…well, it is just a matter of time before I am in the pasture chewing on my cud. " 

Now, I'm pretty much always uncomfortable, and unless I want to have an energy bloated toddler on my hands, I have to figure out a way to get Austin to move around a lot with minimal effort on my part. This is not easy. They say in the books that your baby doesn't actually drop into position on your second pregnancies. This baby begs to differ. I'm pretty sure it has moved down and has wedged itself into a position that makes walking pretty difficult. It has also found my bladder and has decided that they are best friends. I feel little pokes pretty constantly that makes me say, "I have to pee, no, I don't have to pee, I have to pee...." I am hungry, yet, I cannot eat a full meal. I am tired, but many times I lay in bed begging my body to sleep. Contradictions are everywhere. 

Poor Austin has been feeling grumpy this past week as well. I believe his last molar is about to pop through and this has resulted in on again, off again fevers, a swollen gum that is twice the size it should be, and sleepiness that hits at the wrong times of day so that his naps and bedtimes are all over the place. The two of us are quite the pair. 

I think we both take comfort in laying around, reading books, catching naps, watching TV and waiting for the pain or uncomfortableness to pass.It's a fun little pattern our family has gotten into and though it doesn't sound all that pleasant, we are really trying to enjoy it. I know (and I think Austin feels it too) that there won't be many more days for us to just cling to one another. That might be the biggest difference between now and the previous pregnancy. Even though this time is a bit more challenging, I get to go through it holding the cutest little toddler, and with this being his last molar, he gets to go through that clinging to his mama.