Sunday, January 3, 2010

2010

Being a mom comes easy to me, a wife, not so much. I don't know why this is, but around here it's no secret. It's not that I have interest in seeing other people, in fact, that doesn't sound appealing at all, but matching my life with another adult is a challenge for me. The past couple of years has been focused on creating and sustaining little love bundles that are there to squeeze and kiss and occasionally feed and water as well.

It's a well known fact that I could ask Chris to lasso the moon and he would spend the rest of his days trying. I'm lucky like that. I know that this is not because he is a push over (and I know this because I have seen some of his work emails that go around, and my husband is not a pushover!), but it's because he loves me completely and that is the way he shows it to me. Chris tried to please me in almost every action of every day (ladies, get your head out of the gutter).

It's not so well known that I would do the same for him. I love that boy and if he asked me to lasso the moon, I'd probably roll my eyes, tell him that's crazy, BUT! I'd lean in and give him a kiss.

This year, this first full year of our marriage that I won't be pregnant and focused on what is growing or coming out of me, is a year that I will try to be a better wife. I haven't figured out exactly what that means, but I do know that I will TRY to not turn my head when he leans in for the 700,001 kiss of the day. I will TRY to make sure he receives as many back massages as he gives, and I will TRY to put him before myself even when he won't ask me to.

Chris does not read this blog every day, he comes here on days when he finds himself at work before the sun and is wishing like crazy he was still sleeping in with the boys, the pups, and me. He comes here when we've had an argument and he wants to feel closer to us by reading about something he hasn't seen or heard yet. And he comes here when he wants to "see" us throughout the day.

This post is for him. My New Year's resolution that I stated at midnight standing on a frozen lake kissing my husband is for him. I will be a better wife this year. And just between you and I, that is really in my own personal interest as well.

6 comments:

Gina said...

So sweet. (And, though I'm just a sister wife and not your husband, I suspect you are a bit too hard on yourself.)

KerriR said...

This is nice Jessi. One thought that may help you achieve your goal, (though I know you are already a great wife)--before each thing you say, or action you perform, put yourself in the other person's place and decide if you would want it said to you or done to you.

Anonymous said...

Very sweet Jessi. But I think your a great wife.(Although I don't live with you) I hate to admit it but your Moms right. She always thinks before she speaks and I don't and wish I would.

Jennifer

Jes said...

That's funny Jenn, I don't usually think before I speak, and though there are instances where I wish I would have, for the most part I'm happy I don't. I think it builds stronger relationships when you have the security to just speak what you want. That's also one of the things I love about you!

moconbu said...

oh jes. you're funny. This confuses me though. I can't imagine you're a bad wife at all. but i do imagine chris would lasso the moon.

moconbu said...

oh jes. you're funny. This confuses me though. I can't imagine you're a bad wife at all. but i do imagine chris would lasso the moon.